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natoth_museMuse: Na'Toth
Fandom: Babylon 5
Timeline: automn of 2259, Babylon 5 space station
Na'Toth come in apartments of ambassador G'Kar holding in hands the folder with the new correspondence and a box of data-crystals.
" The report from the government, ambassador! - she has told. -Ambassador? Where are you?"
G'Kar jumped out of kitchen with a towel on the shoulder.
" Ah, Na'Toth, here are you! Put it on a table and go here, - he has told, wagging with the spoon, - First, I'll treat you with my most tasty breen, and second, they will show that ISN interview today. I do not want to miss it. I feel, this woman, Cynthia Torqueman, conceives something. Probably, I should not be given interview to her… "
Na'Toth wanted to tell, that warned him concerning this woman, but kept silent and sat down on a couch.
G'Kar quickly put breen on plates and watered it with dense sauce. Aroma was appetizing. Narn attache admired with his culinary skill again.
" Oh, it already begins! - G'Kar started, having sat down on a couch near to her, - All right, let's look, what they have made there! "
When, at last, release of news has approached to the end, Narn ambassador and his attache have exchanged glances.
" Well, - G'Kar said slowly, - I expected the worse … "
" What can be worse, ambassador? - Na'Toth mutters gloomy, picking the cooled down meat ball on the plate. - They have exposed all inhabitants of station as full idiots! I had such impression, their government wants to close this station. This reporter... this woman is terrible! Look at ambassador Delenn! I did not think, ambassador of Minbar can be discomposed so easily … "
"Delenn is not absolutely Minbari now, - G'Kar made thoughtfully, scratching the chin, - she is half human. Neither fish nor fowl, as this woman truly noticed. You know, Na'Toth, I never thought till this moment, that she feels so hurt now. Did not think, Delenn so suffers from her present position… "
Na'Toth closely looked at him and cautiously asked:
" I have learned something new, too, G'Kar … that happened with your father … is the truth? "
He noded silently, not looking at her. Na'Toth has felt, as he strained with whole body.
" Yes, it is the truth, - G'Kar answered. - I do not know, what for I have told about him to this crafty reporter. This is private affair. "
" You never spoke me about your father, ambassador. "
" I did not consider that is necessary to shout about it at each corner, - G'Kar replied slightly peevishly, - It is concerns only me and my father … "
" Did you... loved him?" - she asked. G'Kar smiled gloomy, looking aside.
" Yes, I loved him, - he said, - Anyhow? He was my father! But at that time … I despised him. I counted him coward, because he worked on Centauri instead of running away to Resistance … I was ashamed that I have such cowardly father … Then I behaved with him rather roughly …ah, Na'Toth, I was the silly snotty boy who could not understand, that my father only tried to rescue my ass … When I have understood truth, there was too late … my father was already dead … But I have avenged for him. And Centauri till now pay off for that they did with him! - G'Kar shaken the head angrily. - Forgive me, Na'Toth, but it is unpleasant to me to speak on this theme. You are not guilty in it, I am just … see my father till now, hanging on a tree … begging me to avenge for him …"
Na'Toth noded, trying to imagine, as though she has acted, if such things happened with her father. She would began to avenge him, too. Also would not calm down until last Centauri was lost...
She already regretted, that mentioned this theme. These memoirs obviously caused ambassador a lot of pain.
" I wanted to explain to my father why I act with him so nasty, - G'Kar contienued silently, - tried to talk to him frankly … But each time something prevented me … And when this conversation has taken place, was already too late … such things frequently happen, Na'Toth. We open our true feelings too late … And we hurt those ones whom we actually love above all … "
These words shamed her for some reason, Na'Toth looked down, having recollected her father and how they talked last time.
G'Kar as though has read her mind and asked.
" And you? What about your father, Na'Toth? "
She smiled politely, trying to hide the true feelings.
" I love him, too. When I was the child, I thought, that my father is the hero..."
G'Kar steadfastly looked at her.
"And now? What do you think of him now? "
Na'Toth was silent some time. When she started talking again, her voice was flat and very quiet.
"He... is good man. The wise man. He has taught me to everything, that I know, and I would like to be similar to him... Though I know, I can not, because... Because I do not possess his patience and his tactfulness... And I think... I am proud of my father even if some people consider that he... "
Here she has stopped, not wishing to say aloud this word. A word which she sometimes heard behind the back in Palace of Kha'ri.
Ambassador raised browridge, waiting when his attache will finish her phrase.
But she continued to be silent, and he told mildly, having touched up to her hand.
" I think, you should be proud of your father, Na'Toth. I knew Shu'Toth in days of Resistance, and he was the brave warrior. "
She looked at him in amazement.
" Did you knew my father? "
This time there was G'Kar's turn to be surprised.
" Unless your father did not speak you about it? "
She shaken the head.
" No, my father spoke about those days very seldom. He did not like to recollect Occupation. I know only, that he lived in Centauri family in the youth, and that he participated in the well-known Storm of Palace Kha'ri... "
Ambassador G'Kar sighed, having turned away from her for one instant and murmured under breath:
" He has not changed at all... "
" What have you told, ambassador? "
He smiled and told more loudly.
" I speak, it is the truth, and Shu'Toth battled in that fight, as well as me and many other Narn warriors. You can safely name him as hero. "
Na'Toth bitten a lip.
" I do not think, that father counts himself as hero. "
She made a deep breath, saying words which did not dare to tell so long time.
" He was taken prisoner during this battle... Hardly it was a heroic act. I do not know, what exactly happened then, father did not speak me about it, but I know, that many people were lost because of his act... "
" Means, you think your father is... traitor? "
G'Kar's voice was quiet.
She was silent, looking at him.
" Some people spoke so. "
Ambassador answered not at once, and his voice was very calm.
" One time I was among these people, too. Moreover, I considered, that your father has acted cowardly, having allowed Centauri to capture him instead of committing suicide, as it was necessary to do in such cases. If Shu'Toth killed himself, Centauri telepath could not scan his mind and find out a site of one of our secret refuges. If he did it, they would not attack this refuge where, by the way, our women, children and wounded men were hidden, and would not poison them with gas... If not your father, perhaps, they would be now alive... All these women and children... "
Na'Toth listened to him and pressed the hand to the mouth.
" My mother... She was there, too... Father told to me, that she has managed to survive after this attack... "
G'Kar noded.
" There was about hundred women, children and wounded men. Only a few people have managed to survive. Probably, your mother was among lucky beggars. My.. girlfriend was less successful. "
Na'Toth forced herself to not shiver.
" Perhaps, do you hate my father? "
" I hated him in the past, - G'Kar answered chilly, - We were very young then, quick-tempered and inclined to maximalism. I was angry on him and... well... we have stopped to communicate after that case. I did not see your father many years... But this usual thing, Na'Toth, people become friends during war but when there comes the peace, their ways are divided. I have got used to this. Not at once, indeed, but I have got used. Whether I hate him now? Hardly. Now I have some experience, and I know, there can be different situations. Your father was not the coward. And he was very brave soldier. I feel sorry, that the destiny has played with him so malicious joke. Any of us could appear on his place, and I doubt, that I would look better.
Fate is the mean mistress, attache. Your father was the hero. And he remained the hero, even if nobody names him by this title, as others, for example, Counsellor Li'Dak or Counsellor Kha'Mak. "
She noded.
" I see... Thank you, ambassador... It was very important for me... to hear these words... "
Na'Toth risen from the couch and stepped to the door.
" Where are you going, Na'Toth? "
" I have decided to take advantage of your advice, ambassador, and to call my father. I repent, I did not talk to him some months. Now there is a war... everything can happen... So it will be reasonable, if I'll not postpone this conversation for tomorrow. "
He noded, having smiled slightly.
" It would be really wise decision, attache. "
She stopped on a threshold and turned back to him.
" Can I tell to my father something from you, ambassador? "
G'Kar's face became inexpressive for one instant. Then he slightly relaxed.
" Tell to him... Tell to him...Ah, schrock! "
He waved a hand.
" Ah, tell to him, that I'll call him myself... As soon as I'll have free minute... "
The derisive spark flown in her scarlet eyes.
" I'll tell to him about it, ambassador, be sure. "
Fandom: Babylon 5
Timeline: automn of 2259, Babylon 5 space station
Na'Toth come in apartments of ambassador G'Kar holding in hands the folder with the new correspondence and a box of data-crystals.
" The report from the government, ambassador! - she has told. -Ambassador? Where are you?"
G'Kar jumped out of kitchen with a towel on the shoulder.
" Ah, Na'Toth, here are you! Put it on a table and go here, - he has told, wagging with the spoon, - First, I'll treat you with my most tasty breen, and second, they will show that ISN interview today. I do not want to miss it. I feel, this woman, Cynthia Torqueman, conceives something. Probably, I should not be given interview to her… "
Na'Toth wanted to tell, that warned him concerning this woman, but kept silent and sat down on a couch.
G'Kar quickly put breen on plates and watered it with dense sauce. Aroma was appetizing. Narn attache admired with his culinary skill again.
" Oh, it already begins! - G'Kar started, having sat down on a couch near to her, - All right, let's look, what they have made there! "
When, at last, release of news has approached to the end, Narn ambassador and his attache have exchanged glances.
" Well, - G'Kar said slowly, - I expected the worse … "
" What can be worse, ambassador? - Na'Toth mutters gloomy, picking the cooled down meat ball on the plate. - They have exposed all inhabitants of station as full idiots! I had such impression, their government wants to close this station. This reporter... this woman is terrible! Look at ambassador Delenn! I did not think, ambassador of Minbar can be discomposed so easily … "
"Delenn is not absolutely Minbari now, - G'Kar made thoughtfully, scratching the chin, - she is half human. Neither fish nor fowl, as this woman truly noticed. You know, Na'Toth, I never thought till this moment, that she feels so hurt now. Did not think, Delenn so suffers from her present position… "
Na'Toth closely looked at him and cautiously asked:
" I have learned something new, too, G'Kar … that happened with your father … is the truth? "
He noded silently, not looking at her. Na'Toth has felt, as he strained with whole body.
" Yes, it is the truth, - G'Kar answered. - I do not know, what for I have told about him to this crafty reporter. This is private affair. "
" You never spoke me about your father, ambassador. "
" I did not consider that is necessary to shout about it at each corner, - G'Kar replied slightly peevishly, - It is concerns only me and my father … "
" Did you... loved him?" - she asked. G'Kar smiled gloomy, looking aside.
" Yes, I loved him, - he said, - Anyhow? He was my father! But at that time … I despised him. I counted him coward, because he worked on Centauri instead of running away to Resistance … I was ashamed that I have such cowardly father … Then I behaved with him rather roughly …ah, Na'Toth, I was the silly snotty boy who could not understand, that my father only tried to rescue my ass … When I have understood truth, there was too late … my father was already dead … But I have avenged for him. And Centauri till now pay off for that they did with him! - G'Kar shaken the head angrily. - Forgive me, Na'Toth, but it is unpleasant to me to speak on this theme. You are not guilty in it, I am just … see my father till now, hanging on a tree … begging me to avenge for him …"
Na'Toth noded, trying to imagine, as though she has acted, if such things happened with her father. She would began to avenge him, too. Also would not calm down until last Centauri was lost...
She already regretted, that mentioned this theme. These memoirs obviously caused ambassador a lot of pain.
" I wanted to explain to my father why I act with him so nasty, - G'Kar contienued silently, - tried to talk to him frankly … But each time something prevented me … And when this conversation has taken place, was already too late … such things frequently happen, Na'Toth. We open our true feelings too late … And we hurt those ones whom we actually love above all … "
These words shamed her for some reason, Na'Toth looked down, having recollected her father and how they talked last time.
G'Kar as though has read her mind and asked.
" And you? What about your father, Na'Toth? "
She smiled politely, trying to hide the true feelings.
" I love him, too. When I was the child, I thought, that my father is the hero..."
G'Kar steadfastly looked at her.
"And now? What do you think of him now? "
Na'Toth was silent some time. When she started talking again, her voice was flat and very quiet.
"He... is good man. The wise man. He has taught me to everything, that I know, and I would like to be similar to him... Though I know, I can not, because... Because I do not possess his patience and his tactfulness... And I think... I am proud of my father even if some people consider that he... "
Here she has stopped, not wishing to say aloud this word. A word which she sometimes heard behind the back in Palace of Kha'ri.
Ambassador raised browridge, waiting when his attache will finish her phrase.
But she continued to be silent, and he told mildly, having touched up to her hand.
" I think, you should be proud of your father, Na'Toth. I knew Shu'Toth in days of Resistance, and he was the brave warrior. "
She looked at him in amazement.
" Did you knew my father? "
This time there was G'Kar's turn to be surprised.
" Unless your father did not speak you about it? "
She shaken the head.
" No, my father spoke about those days very seldom. He did not like to recollect Occupation. I know only, that he lived in Centauri family in the youth, and that he participated in the well-known Storm of Palace Kha'ri... "
Ambassador G'Kar sighed, having turned away from her for one instant and murmured under breath:
" He has not changed at all... "
" What have you told, ambassador? "
He smiled and told more loudly.
" I speak, it is the truth, and Shu'Toth battled in that fight, as well as me and many other Narn warriors. You can safely name him as hero. "
Na'Toth bitten a lip.
" I do not think, that father counts himself as hero. "
She made a deep breath, saying words which did not dare to tell so long time.
" He was taken prisoner during this battle... Hardly it was a heroic act. I do not know, what exactly happened then, father did not speak me about it, but I know, that many people were lost because of his act... "
" Means, you think your father is... traitor? "
G'Kar's voice was quiet.
She was silent, looking at him.
" Some people spoke so. "
Ambassador answered not at once, and his voice was very calm.
" One time I was among these people, too. Moreover, I considered, that your father has acted cowardly, having allowed Centauri to capture him instead of committing suicide, as it was necessary to do in such cases. If Shu'Toth killed himself, Centauri telepath could not scan his mind and find out a site of one of our secret refuges. If he did it, they would not attack this refuge where, by the way, our women, children and wounded men were hidden, and would not poison them with gas... If not your father, perhaps, they would be now alive... All these women and children... "
Na'Toth listened to him and pressed the hand to the mouth.
" My mother... She was there, too... Father told to me, that she has managed to survive after this attack... "
G'Kar noded.
" There was about hundred women, children and wounded men. Only a few people have managed to survive. Probably, your mother was among lucky beggars. My.. girlfriend was less successful. "
Na'Toth forced herself to not shiver.
" Perhaps, do you hate my father? "
" I hated him in the past, - G'Kar answered chilly, - We were very young then, quick-tempered and inclined to maximalism. I was angry on him and... well... we have stopped to communicate after that case. I did not see your father many years... But this usual thing, Na'Toth, people become friends during war but when there comes the peace, their ways are divided. I have got used to this. Not at once, indeed, but I have got used. Whether I hate him now? Hardly. Now I have some experience, and I know, there can be different situations. Your father was not the coward. And he was very brave soldier. I feel sorry, that the destiny has played with him so malicious joke. Any of us could appear on his place, and I doubt, that I would look better.
Fate is the mean mistress, attache. Your father was the hero. And he remained the hero, even if nobody names him by this title, as others, for example, Counsellor Li'Dak or Counsellor Kha'Mak. "
She noded.
" I see... Thank you, ambassador... It was very important for me... to hear these words... "
Na'Toth risen from the couch and stepped to the door.
" Where are you going, Na'Toth? "
" I have decided to take advantage of your advice, ambassador, and to call my father. I repent, I did not talk to him some months. Now there is a war... everything can happen... So it will be reasonable, if I'll not postpone this conversation for tomorrow. "
He noded, having smiled slightly.
" It would be really wise decision, attache. "
She stopped on a threshold and turned back to him.
" Can I tell to my father something from you, ambassador? "
G'Kar's face became inexpressive for one instant. Then he slightly relaxed.
" Tell to him... Tell to him...Ah, schrock! "
He waved a hand.
" Ah, tell to him, that I'll call him myself... As soon as I'll have free minute... "
The derisive spark flown in her scarlet eyes.
" I'll tell to him about it, ambassador, be sure. "
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2006-03-07 22:07 (UTC)no subject
2006-03-07 22:23 (UTC)*sighs*
Narns are tough people...hmm.
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2006-03-07 22:43 (UTC)no subject
2006-03-09 13:52 (UTC)